Meaning of my Existence?!{♥}

♥ must put title (inside joke haha)

Saturday, August 30, 2008 -{'9:20 AM

SIP is over XD happy....haha.... watched movie with yokie lucas they all.... enjoyed the show alot haha....

met up with vanessa after the show at 11pm... drank abit.... promised her and yan qiu that i will turn up for church the next day.... instead KO when reach home...

woke up at bout 10am ba haha...dunno why wake up at that timing haha but freaking damn weak lor... dont think i can even just enough strength to run haha....

went for church at 5 plus haha (man of my words), feel abit uncomfortable at the start.... but abit warmed up and ya... i enjoy the speech... realy motivative haha.....

ah well.... below is just the lyrics of a song that describe my feeling ba haha...

像两首节拍不同的歌
却又同时被爱情合奏
旋律勉强着
愉快不能够假装快乐
你心中有宽阔的天空
等空气还稀薄
曾经因为等待会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我

你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞

如果爱情是五线谱
我只希望用全音符
吟唱出爱上你
那完整的幸福
当你的心没有耳朵
即使我为你唱这歌
你也只看见我哭了

你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞

曾经等待因为会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我

你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心
HO 还会不会寂寞

你说我我是你最好的朋友
却不应该再拥抱着
你对错你冷漠
你使我放开手
不在乎我的心
会永远更寂寞
呜。。☆。

♥

Thursday, August 28, 2008 -{'2:07 AM

zzz project kana extent 6 weeks... cus stupid company drop another project on us.... zzz

cant complain should be happy ba, at least my mind will not be wandering , and have a good way to pass time.....

decide to move on, understood that no matter what the past will not be change.... understand and respect ur choice of choosing studies before everything else.....

oh well... at least was given the choice to have a week break before extendtion XD maybe will make used of it to grab some well deserve sleep ba haha....

♥

Thursday, August 14, 2008 -{'1:47 AM

If Only Tears Could Bring You Back
Midnight Sons

How will I start
Tomorrow without you here
Who's heart will guide me
When all the answers disappear

Is it too late
Are you too far gone to stay
Best friends forever
Should never have to go away

What will I do
You know I'm only half without you
How will I make it through

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

I've cried you an ocean
If you'd sail on home again
Wings of emotion
Will carry you, I know they can

Just let love guide you
And your heart will chart the course
Soon you'll be drifting
Into the arms of your true north

Look in my eyes
You'll see a million tears have gone by
And still they're not dry

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

I hold you close
And shout the words I only whispered before
For one more chance, for one last dance
There's nothing that I would not give and more

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

♥

Saturday, August 9, 2008 -{'5:14 AM

lol the effects of alcohol is so fun lol.... think my sis notice it haha.... well... she the one who saw me come back home yesterday night with the 2 long island bottle from 7-11 anyway lol XD.....

alcohol.... its the only item that enable me to temp forget my sorrow... and stress of SIP.....

havent had any for 2 month.... since i promise i wont drink heavily.... and wont drink when she is around.. kept to the promise even when she is no longer by my side..... and now.... i only drink when i really down or having differculty in school.... sigh.... and i thought alcohol is for when im happy only....

dear i miss you so..... tell me..... what must i do..... anything...... so u will come back to me.....

♥

Thursday, August 7, 2008 -{'7:17 PM

F-ing bitch.... stop asking me to solve every single minor problem u cant solve.... seriously do u even read and understand the code? from what i see u are just copy and pasting the codes and hoping things go fine....

im a human damn it, not a god!!!! i dont create miracle so stop freaking asking me what to do and go try or search online!!!!

its u who choose to do networking in the first place, so stop whining on how hard it is.... no one is born with knowledge on how to do.... we have to learn de lor... grr

bad day... really bad day....

♥

Sunday, August 3, 2008 -{'7:14 AM

last week to chiong before PR2.... siao liao haha...

nothing much to update.... getting sick again.... endure zzzz

my dear..... i missed you so much..... wont you give me a chance to see you again.....